She energizes me every time we are together.
We make a plan of attack. We let go of stress. We choose to focus on our project and nothing beyond the scope of that project. We slash 12-15 occupied hours from our week to make this happen. This is bold and brave in my tangled world. This is unpaid time to create something bigger, better, broader. This choice frees our minds and invites creative space.
We have been so busy delivering the service that we miss consistent time to compile, gather, and finish content for the workshop series. We’ve done the research. Now we write what we’ve wanted to complete for three years. More youth and children can have access to the opportunity in upcoming days when we hit pause so we can adjust our work. As a different friend says, “Sometimes you need to take a minute.”
We pick a date for our next meeting and hit the bi-weekly calendar repeat button. It feels good to be with a fellow creative person. And she’s so smart. She’s done the surrender work in her own life. She is at peace. I want peace.
Back in the car I think, In about a year we’re going to meet our goal. Maybe in six months!
My car rattles. I make my way to the highway, then catch myself. No. Not in a year. Not in 6 months. We will do the work and it will happen as it happens. This project will unfold as it is meant to be.
I will not force it.
I will surrender to the process.
I will do my part of the work and we will see the reveal in time.
I pray, Show me the way.
I am a planner who can also be spontaneous. I get hung up in the goal setting and walk in circles around the straight line that would be the easiest route. I make things harder. Not this time.
Make me a new vessel, Lord. Guide my path. Not my will, but Yours. I don’t want my work-all-night-to-meet-a-deadline mode of operation. No. Not this time.
And so, the project begins with fresh air and a relaxed attitude.
Proverbs 37:7 Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret….
In about a year… We will diligently do the work with an open mind and see what happens. I will rest when it’s time to rest and I will work when it’s time to work.
Does this make sense to other artists/writers out there? Does surrender lead to a better way through life’s path? I welcome your thoughts.
Pictures from the Cincinnati Nature Center on 9/17/18. I was there for a training event. The instructor gave us time to explore. I saw deer, frogs, turtles, and I watched the leaves begin their seasonal descent.
God bless you,