I love to learn, especially about human behavior and social change. The toughest human subject for me to observe, though, is me. Learning about reasons for my own behavior, habits, and struggles is the hardest set of knots to untie.
There are things we understand logically in our mind long before we accept the same logic in our heart. Lately the word capacity rolls around in my head like an old-fashioned marble.
I am the gal who didn’t finish Lysa Terkeurst’s book The Best Yes: Making Wise Decisions In The Midst Of Endless Demands, which is really about how to say no. I probably didn’t finish because I said yes to something and put the book aside. I also didn’t finish the book Boundaries: When To Say Yes How To Say No And Take Control Of Your Life by Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend. I am a book finisher. So, the fact that I didn’t finish reading either book may point to pattern. Uh, yes.
The pattern goes all the way back to a 6th grade Happy Gram where the teacher wrote about me “she always does more than necessary to create excellent work.” While that felt good at the time, now I’m not sure that was the happiest of words.
I am at a crossroads where I wish I had more to give when I have given more than I had.
So, I began saying no to projects last week. I said no to projects I normally would be honored to complete. Right now I need to spend time with our Higher Power, spend time with some family and friends, write and create the next chapter of life. Every decision going forward is considered along with the question: Do I have the capacity? I suspect wisdom and capacity are closely linked. We shall see.
Proverbs 4:7 (NIV) The beginning of wisdom is this: Get wisdom. Though it cost all you have, get understanding.
Do you have wisdom in this area? How do you measure and make choices about capacity?
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I have started The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People…twice and never finished. I’m not sure what that says about me! 🙂 I love the knot imagery!