God wacked me over the head with a song this morning.
I spent quiet time yesterday and early today poring over every word of Proverbs 3:5-6. I personalize the words. Trust in the Lord with all my heart…not my understanding…submit…He will direct my path….
Leaving home for outsourced biscuits and gravy (don’t judge), I ramble with God in the silent car: I committed to share this surrender experiment. I’m not sure I have much to say, God. Is surrender acknowledging Your power? I gratefully let go of any power I thought I had. Really. My body aches every day with this crazy clean out the house effort. It was all I could do to resist taking a muscle relaxer at 6am. I can’t do that because I need these daylight hours…yes, I need You too.
Driving downhill sunshine flutters through leaves into the car. I hear the words HERE NOW loudly in my ear/mind. I recognize that phrase is a song title by Hillsong United that I haven’t heard in a while. I sing some of the words:
Cause I know that you are here now.
It makes no sense, but this is grace.
I know you are with me in this place….
I continue to sing. My voice raises in worship.
And then it hits me. I am overcome thinking and KNOWING that surrender brings God up close. Our Higher Power is ever present. When we surrender it is in those moments that we are in total closeness, togetherness, and in acknowledgement of God’s love.
Huh. I’ll be chewing on that thought for a while. What do you think?
Also, God is love therefore it should not surprise me the love I’ve felt both for God and for people in the last two days. Random people: The mother of a 3-year-old and 6-month-old at the laundromat, a pregnant cashier at Bob Evans, the man at Great Clips with a suicide prevention tattoo…and not so random: my husband, sons and friends. If you poke my arm heart emojis may float out of me.
Here is the verse for day 2 along with my surrender list continuation:
1 Peter 5:6-7 (NIV) Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
5. I surrender my path. God, take the lead. I trust You know a better way.
6. I surrender debt. God, please clear the way to debt free living. I hand over the mistakes made when we inaccurately counted the cost of what it would mean to live in the non-profit world with a corporate world house.
7. I let go of fears related to ALS in our family.
Now back to sorting, trash bag gathering, and lugging items to Goodwill.
If you chose to join me, how is your surrender experiment going? Am I on to something? What are you discovering?
Sidebar: Do you see a face in the clouds with the rainbow picture?